So if you've been watching me this year you'd see that the only events that seemed to have happened to me were the rejection from school and I saw the new Star Trek movie... And rtwise there's been just as little activity.
The truth is there's been a lot more going on than that, unfortunately its all been negative. Like dealing with a rat infestation, or being sued for the third time this year (!) and having my wages garnished...
Its all stuff I'd rather not talk about, and as a result I've noticed this whole year to be just...a waste. I mean in started off bad with what happened in January, and it seems I have yet to recover emotionally. I know that's true when I by chance saw a SCAD gallery and was pissed thinking that only 1 or 2 pieces there were as good or better than anything I can do. The rest were.... yeah, its like that old saying "if you don't have anything good to say..."
I just felt like shit thinking "THEY don't believe I'm good enough"
*sigh* Anyways, like I said, almost a year later and it still hurts. So much so, that I've secretly thought of saying to hell with art altogether.
You know, its so easy to get caught up in the day to day grind with a job that you dont even realize how you're just going through the motions...just waiting till life's over. Its ridiculous that that's the extent of what life is, when I feel that's nothing like what it needs to be.
Its as if after all of our collective growth and evolutionary progress, we're still little more than hunters & gatherers. Except instead of being in the bush wearing a loincloth, we're in concrete jungles wearing uniforms.
Anyways, I dont want this to turn into a rant, I already attempted writing this twice and each time this turned into "Mein Kampf" only with the wealthy and the exploiters taking the place of Jews,

I had really big plans for this year all of which have been now postponed until next year.
In the meantime, to aide with my financial problems I am officially taking commissions.

===COMMISSIONS====
I doubt anyone will take me up on this, but who knows,,,
I'm not going to set up a pricing system, since I dont believe in doing sketches and all these variations of an art peice. So to put it simply...

I CHARGE $80 DOLLARS MINIMUM

That's steep, I know, but for that you get a full-on illustrated peice. None of this mess where its one character standing there floating on a page filled with white nothingness.... To me that's not worth anything. Not even 20 bucks. For the price of 4 of these 20 dollar sketches that feature 1 character, I'd rather have a fully completed peice with 4 characters in it. Here's an example of what I'm talking about, a commissioned peice from last year...
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Simply send a note, e-mail me, or get in touch with me via AIM (though I'm rarely on to talk at this moment), after which I'll reply and tell you if I'll accept the gig or not.

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As for my 2009 Goals list, it reads like a joke now... Almost nothing was accomplished, either because it became impossible (like stuff for school), or because I was too strung up on personal b.s. and/or stress and time constraints from work, to make anything happen. I'll still close out with it, but just re-reading it now 10 months later and realizing how much time was been lost, its just embarassing....

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GOALS FOR 2009
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INAPPLICABLE = Obtain matriculation fee
CHECK = *Begin work on adult concept project.
CHECK = *Get a Netbook.

*Have a conversation with.... (TOP SECRET)
*Begin re-modeling of DA - starred pieces
*Complete TOTUS "ashcan" & website.
*Refurbish wzrdrobe - nothing fits anymore!
*Begin/complete claw version 1.0.
*Begin/complete backpack project.
*Obtain CWP.